In this moment I’m moving from San Javier to Talca. That is my journey everyday in order to study. The bus is quite crowded and there are many faces of tiredness and fatigue, most of the people here is quite and in silence. The day has been very cloudy and definitely, there is no option to see the sun today. The bus driver is obviously… driving, but suddenly he makes a movement with his hand… he is trying to change the radio station into another one which is playing a very particular song to me because it is the song which made me feel depressed along time ago. In those times I was depressed, but I must confess that music was only one of the causes of my depression. There were many others like loneliness, stress, introvert personality, etc. When I looked for a cure to my depression I started to go to church, and there were many other young people like me, some of them had been depressed and some of them were still depressed but much better. For me it was sad but true to find that I was not the only one with this disease. Why that should be a sad true? If young people is synonym of “dreamer”
for everyone and despite of this it is very common to find many young people becoming
depressive and destroying their life.
First of all, problems are one of the main reasons of depression in young people. In my case problem used to make me feel sad, every area in my life was quite problematic. I had an accumulated stress of school, and my parents used to put a big pressure on me but I was not successful, so that was disappointed for me, I always did my best but marks never got better. If we look our society we will find that just a few number of students are successful, but the others are in the middle, I mean no good nor bad students, in the ordinary section, I was there. I feel ashamed when I remember myself coping on many tests, which was completely useless because I didn’t learn anything. Music was then a way to escape from reality, with music we may express our feelings, but to be honest, the kind of music that I used to listen to wasn’t the best, and the song that I mentioned before was in particular horribly gloomy, it was something like: “who cares what do you do? You will die anyway” this idea crashed into my head all day long and made me feel completely non sense. The lyrics must be analyzed for us the young people, some adults say that the youth must only study, that we are only learners but that is not true. We are more dreamers than any other thing and that’s why we study and do everything. We like to think that problems are smaller than us because we have hope in tomorrow, and our dreams are most of the time influenced by the music that we listened to.
On the other hand ,depression brings about many other effects in young people. In my case it brought a strong unsocial behavior, I started to leave my girlfriend aside, so she finished our relation, yes, the same depression made me close any kind of contact and communication with the people around me and she wasn’t the exception, so from a loneliness I jumped into a completely isolation. Then I began to think about our happy moments, when I hugged her, kissed her and said her how much I loved her, but then she was not. A mix of guiltiness and melancholic feelings were hurting me. That was not all, the disease causes headaches, maybe because of think too much and the consequent fatigue of the brain. There was also a lack of appetite and this is very common in depressive people, they don’t feel hungry so they lose weight. I still remember the face of my mother when I left the plate full of meals untouched
before being cooking in the kitchen during all the morning. Being depressed due to the break up of a relationship, problems and accumulated stress make the person can not concentrate in his/her family and of course in the friend circle. So the family members and friend may feel bad. Communication here is very important and the attention of the people who live around the depressed person.
In conclusion, depression is everywhere and in any age and our youth is not the exception. They are not untouchables or immunes. If you have a friend who is having this kind of aptitudes don’t get rid of him, even if he says that he doesn’t need any help or is a bit impatient, he really needs to feel that the others are there giving him affection and attention. It is said that depression is the disease of this century. Now that I’m about to drop of the bus I feel that I am safe and healed, I am free. Those times have been left behind. But it was because I’ve found a being who was there to cheer me up, to make me feel loved, and to listened to me.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
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